Emotionless wreck ??

It really didn't strike me this post is valentine's day-worthy,until a certain friend who saw the draft(that was composed way back in 2008) asked me to publish it.Well.... Valentines Day is when A sweetheart(A person loved by another person)is chosen to receive a greeting or gift expressing love(well that's how dictionaries define it). Don't mock me by your immature talk-backs or impertinent cheekiness, that this day can not apply to forms of love other than the lovergirl-loverboy type.Assume as you may,but here in my world,things work my way(until of course, time or something else changes me:well ,even then it'd be my way right?! :) )Before you get to read this,let me just tell you this :"Publishing this post means embarrassment to me *blush* because the mood when this was written,why this was written is  kinda inexplicable.)

People see me as somebody with zero emotions.. That just drives me mad!Seriously,could there be someone like that,who could survive in that manner???

Well this is the scenario:

Friend watches movie called vaaranam ayiram.. Calls up and says"Its really superb..Blah blah blah! In particular i got too much of feelings for a particular thing" I say,"Okay yaar..I'll watch it too..I'm going  to the movies tomorrow!" Then I actually get to watch it... (actually its a pretty good movie about how happy a family is...how the son shares almost everything with his dad !!Movie goes fine..I'm more drawn by the scenes of Surya with Sameera Reddy,especially the train episodes! :D )When we speak again I tell this particular friend,"Hey it was good..So what was tat feelings part of the movie u admired so much ?"(Just inquisitive to know if our tastes matched)That's it ...!!! She's triggered and starts spitting out words(as if she knew all that she was gonna say,by heart) which tend to mean "Yeah ! I knew you wouldn't have liked it..It was far too emotional for you..Unaku than feelings ay varadhey + some other crap" :O I said "get a hold of urself ....Do you even know what I  meant?"Well,that was what I meant to,in any case.. Rather I just hung up saying "tats it end of story.Ciao!" *really angry* The issue was over in a matter of few minutes,when the unemotional me called up again and corrected her !!  /:|

Well..Now again..another gang of friends watch the movie again...and somehow someone says something similar to what the previous person said !! That's the zenith of whatever it was that I was feeling at that moment!!!

Hush ! don't say one more word..I know @ this point the truth seems so absurd..But thats exactly what I'm gonna tell you!!!

My emotions do not rest on ground zero... Well..this is the truth, the real truth and YOU , Mitha** and Caffinegirl** and the rest of you know it: "Gracy is NOT, I repeat,IS NOT a emotionless wreck! It may seem that I'm not too attached with my family,but that doesn't mean I miss them most of the times..I may not speak with them for as much time on the phone or as much,for that case,with them., as you the "so called emotional" guys speak,but that CERTAINLY doesn't mean I love them (or they love me) any less.How dare you challenge my intuitive feelings. You may quote this exact quote some other time , I'm sure, and I sincerely don't approve of it either..Now, Back to the point... When watching the movie,I had so many thoughts in my head too...But then..expression of thoughts is something I rarely do,unless it is absolutely necessary or if that is gonna do some good to mankind..."Else,why bother?" That's one principle I live by,and if you people who've been with me all thru' this 4 year engineering course don't know till now,Get to know it NOW!! The father Surya in the movie resembled my dad so much...(not all) only i've failed to be the equivalent of son Surya and tell him everything(because of my sick principle!) As for the mom ,I'm not so sure,cos my lovely mom is the strict kinda disciplined person.So that's variety in a household,which is an absolute must to cheer up the home! As for my brother,(Nobody knows this)I love him loads!(Sorry Dany,you had to find this one out,the same time the rest of the world had to) But we fight loads too..So that makes up for it!!Despite the fact mom and dad see us as dog and cat,the annoying cat shares kodak moments with the dog...Only..they aren't captured to be broadcast!So that's one really happy family as I see it! Don'tcha think!Well..I'm least bothered what you may think..So don't strain X(

Sorry everybody..This letter is kinda harsh today as I'm in a sorta fix,which I'm sure is gonna pass.

Slow motion devastation..should have seen it coming.Couldn't do nothing.Emotions desperation.... Go on get out of my head..I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe..! (Lines from a music track by Hilary Duff crossing my mind now)..

Bottomline:Everybody's got a unique relationship with their family..For your info-I've got one too..Only it isn't publicized as much as yours(maybe)Other than that there's no big difference!This movie has gotten people think about their families to an extent no other "Tamil" movie has done.

i remember Mitha saying that she wanted to go kiss her dad and say i love u to him..But didn't do it because of not doing it all these years and suddenly one fine day....! Well..I strongly recommend you to do so on father's day !As for me.. emotionless wreck i'll remain to you always(till the time you change your opinion of me)..But in reality only a emotion-not displaying girl! I find playing this part more fun and like a part of the cool kid regime !I like it when you people say "I'm cool,poised and not bothered about what goes around"I feel that is how a person should be..not too stuck with or playing around with emotions.Well that's just one persons principle..and nobody can have a say in it.But when you actually brand me (time and again) as being emotionless,that's what pisses me off !!

That's it END OF STORY !

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** - Names changed for privacy

Mitha,Caffinegirl read this letter later that night and haven't defied me again!So have the rest. :)

While men buy mostly for romantic reasons, women use Valentine's Day as an opportunity to show they care to mothers, daughters and friends, as well as their sweethearts. Women even treat themselves on Valentine's Day

I was just wondering...and googled and presto I was right - There are people who think like me!Here's proof. I think Valentines Day is a fun holiday for expressing love and affection which should not be ignored, even if the love is between family members and friends versus romantic partners.I know that parents have Mother's Day and Father's Day but Valentines Day is also significant and I don't think it is just for lovers but extends to anyone for whom you have a special place in your heart.
Am I taking it too far though and has Hallmark totally brainwashed unsuspecting consumers like me?

Well ,the reason I wanted to publish this at this time is this : Don't forget those people who love you far higher than you could reason or imagine: your genitors ! Come on ,Go make 'em happy with your valentine day wish...I'm sure Gen X never expects such wishes from Gen Y ,during the valentine season.. Of course you could never ask them the classic 'Will you be my..?" question :P,..still its a time to express that upsurge of love !I dunno if I have influenced you in any way...but if I have I'll be really happy to know of it :) Does anybody here agree with my principle - of feb14 ? Please enumerate and make my day !